I am feeling very depressed as of late. From what I have been reading, it must be the weather or the water because everyone seems to be that way. I'm just blah. I wish I had more to say, some better way to describe it, but I don't.

And it's all weird because I should be at my most happiest right now. I'm getting ready to move to a new, exciting locale. I'm getting married. I'm graduating. But I just feel tired. I'm tired of functioning. I'm tired of moving. I just want to lay down for a while and not have to get up, no matter who wants me to and why.

At the Health Center, they say I am stressed. Stressed? I don't know. I'm something, but I don't think it is stressed. I am tired. Just really, really tired. I just want it all to stop. It shouldn't be that hard.

I am rereading The Bell Jar, and shit fire if it don't make sense this time.

I miss people. I miss my Kathleen and my Katie and my Bob and Amber and Rachel. But I swear to God, if I saw them right now, I don't even think I could talk to them. Isn't that weird? I want to talk, but then again, I just want people to leave me alone and just let me stop. I just want to sleep.